July 22, 2014

the boobs and the babe

say you have a second baby and you think that since you just stopped nursing your first babe 4 months ago, that your boobies will be ready and happy to take on a new client. but then, instead of a celebratory receiving, your boobs are sad and angry and screaming and cracking and bleeding and crying. 

then, you'll be sad. 

maybe it's because your boobs quickly forgot how to do the dew. perhaps it's because new baby is a super large and strong lad who drinks with a fury that your boobies had not known before. even still, maybe it's just a part of the process that you completely forgot about, that you knew would be difficult but not ever this difficult. 

what do you do? 

you probably ask your husband at 3am to go make a bottle of formula because you. just. can't. you probably cry a lot and curl your toes and tap your feet and tighten all the muscles in your body. you hold your breath. you squeeze the shit out of your boobs to try and distract yourself from the piercing pain of the milk monster baby. you try your best to stuff the entire breast in his mouth because that's what you should do but somehow, it's never enough. 

you will pump more. you will embrace the pump more than you ever did the first time. 

but. 

you will also hope that this is just one stop on the nursing train because things will get better as they almost always do. you imagine that soon enough, your little lady lumps will toughen up and show that baby they're up for the job. 

because you are one strong mama. you've done this before and you'll do it again. 


that's what you'll do.

6 comments:

  1. without sounding weird, good luck with the boobs!

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  2. Sweetie!!! Whenever you need to talk, you just let me know. This EXACTLY was nursing Edi. You can do it babe. Hang in there.

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  3. You go Mama!!! That will be the thing I dread the most when we have a second child. But, it's a sacrifice us mamas make for our little cuties. Hang in there, you at least know there is an end to the pain and it's closer than you think! Take good care of yourself and don't beat yourself up if you have to give him formula, it's not the worst thing that could happen!! Thinking of you, girl.

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    1. Glad Erin commented because I was gonna mention her in my comment! When she had Alexia, I (being without babies) had no idea that breastfeeding was so difficult! Luckily for me, Erin is the firstborn and does everything first so I can learn. Hah.

      I hope it gets better for you and thank you thank you for being so open and honest about your experiences as a mother so that those of us who don't have babies know what's coming ahead!

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  4. I had the same feeling with Ri and to make it worse, the uterus contracting?! OMG worse than real contractions for me. I swore I wouldn't use it again, but a lactation consultant once again hooked me up with a nipple shield. Pain went away. The only problem is I don't know how to wean my kids from them...so they become our lovey. ��

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  5. Yup, same situation I had with my second born, it gets better, just like it did with the first. I am actually pregnant with my third (due in November) and my second just weaned and I already know the first few weeks are going to be toe curling. But when you think about the fact that the new baby hasn't nursed before, it does make sense. Good luck!

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